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did you actually block me on facebook? you couldn’t bare to look at my face again? you had to get away that fast? delete and block me out of your life like this never even happened? i didn’t even go to my second interview today because of you. 

I fucking hate you.

i am going to miss the sex. i am missing your body on mine. i miss your skin, your eyes, your smile. i miss you.

i dont know what you are thinking.

There isn’t much to say about what is happening in my life at the moment. I hurt, I cry and feel weak yet at times I feel my emotions are on a regular beat.
This was going to happen. You were not going to keep this going. And I knew as soon as I heated those few words, I had to leave. I had to be a quitter for the right reasons because not quitting with this would have destroyed me.
I left without saying a word. So many words I had to say and I had prepared for the time just did not come out. So many words I still would like to say but some things are better left unsaid.
I don’t know what you’re thinking. I don’t know if you care. If you go to sleep at night in your bed and can smell me on your pillow or find me around the room because I can’t stop seeing you everywhere.
I did a stupid thing that night, such a small thing but it was stupid. Consequences will follow.

I want to get inside your head. I was once inside your heart but never inside your head.

I love you more than anything but this was something I had to do for my own good because I couldn’t wait around any longer.
Yet I lay here at 7am wanting you laying next to me keeping me warm.
There was nothing else I could possibly do.
Nothing.

I’m not even sure what this is about anymore

I have strong gut feelings about this. This has occurred before and it’s a danger sign. Now is this time that I make smart decisions, not the same ones I made before.

Would be nice if you spoke to me…